What is Moving Within Your Heart of Hearts?

Written in a Journal on June 15, 2010 ( 4 years ago)

Feeling compelled to go inward, to find what is moving within the heart space today! Have had fifteen days with Luca ( grandbaby), nineteen days total off from school. Feelings of freedom well up. Releasing burdens, acknowledging my true passion to live life moment by moment.  Such as the moment when a single glance wipes out the  bitterness from the heart and sets it throbbing with new love.  

In  moments of true forgetfulness, there is a detachment from all material surroundings. The poet allows her imagination to soar into this realm of forget “fullness” often.  While others many find this state very rare. While it is said that poets, artists, and philosophers are born, not made, it can also be said that these phases of real forget “fullness” are the results of real efforts made both in this life and past lives.

In an attempt to make life bearable some people develop a feeble kind of stoicism – a sort of “who cares, anyway” outlook – and others plunge recklessly into epicurism. The former is the apathetic acceptance of defeat and the latter is effort to forget defeat in the arms of pleasure. Neither is true forgetfulness. Neither can be called victorious!

Today I grow to know You as I gaze into nothing, going nowhere.

Here, ever closer to the One I am searching for!

July 14, 2010 ( 1 month later)

Hello pages of my soul speaking out loud to be heard by my heart of hearts.

Dear One:
Begin your sales by selling yourself upon yourself. You are an exquisite gem exploring your own many facets of growth and inner learning – compassionate dweller of stellar landscapes, inner and outer.

Monday in September 17, 2012 (A year and 10 months, and 3 days later)

…it enters your heart how much you should become a helper of the Father…and give happiness…show everyone the path of happiness given by The One who has come to teach you how to smile.


I am awake to the magic and kindness of the ONE~


I am awake to the kindness of the ONE who teaches me everyday and who is healing my heart from any impurity. I, the soul, love purity, seek purity, and give pure feelings to others through my thoughts. I am in deep communion with the ONE on this magical day. I am awake to the ONE”S magic. The magic of a ready smile, the magic of a loving child, the magic of a pure and true heart, the magic of a flexible part. The magic of never being alone, the magic of flying home, the magic of belonging to ONE, the magic of hearing the Hum. The magic of listening, the magic of reaping, the magic of knowing all that I’ve been told is true. The magic the ONE holds for me and for you.

The ONE says: “All that I have is yours, but you must let go of all that you think of as yours. Share the blessings, share the greatness, share the wonder. Giving it away is the way to receive the fullness of my gifts for you. Have no fear, the ONE is always near to a loving heart.

The One said to the Child: Give me the sanskaras (imprints) of hurt, the sanskaras (imprints) of not being heard, the sanskaras (imprints) of having your toes stepped on. Stay introverted and know all will be yours. DO NOT LOSE YOUR DIGNITY..STAY IN TOUCH WITH ME through all relationships. Keep me Between you and another. Do what you do for another child for Me. Put others ahead of yourself and you will always be first in My Heart. This is an Art.


My Sweetest One,
You are my true Friend. With You, I am complete. With You, I know who I am, who I have been, and who I am becoming. Dearest One I belong to You alone.

The One Responded in my mind~

Know yourself as I know you, Child. Sit in the seat of self-respect as the true sovereign soul that you are. You are becoming a master of silence and an embodiment of peace and love. Remember Me, be with Me , and the longer you stay within my Presence, within My reach, I will transmute you into pure gold, removing the alloy which you have collected over lifetimes of uncertainty and sorrow and blind faith.

Restore your original joy, your original smile without a face, your original self without a body. All else is distraction, costuming, and subplots. Stay with Me and win the lottery, catch the golden ring and get off the merry-go-round of who, what, where, why, and when.

Your victory is in my Open Hand. Touch it. Feel it. Imbibe what is yours, has always been yours, and which no one can put asunder.

Take a step, reach for me, and I will be there a thousandfold.


Thank you Beloved Father, Mother, Child, Beloved, Friend, Guide~though you can not be seen, you can be felt.  You are the Comforter of Hearts, the Remover of Sorrow.  I wish to stay close by your side as I walk through this world which seems to be at some amazing tipping point~moving from the utmost extreme darkness into the very depths of our most pristine and light filled days.

Om Shanti and Happy Holy Days as we cycle through time back to the beginning, back to our original purity, our original joy, and our original truth.  GET READY!!!







A Personal Message

As I sit here thinking of you, the reader,  I realize that it has taken years of churning issues, problems, and dilemmas to get to this point of knowing. The kind of knowing that goes far beyond the twin shadows of doubt and delusion, that I  have something to say that’s worth the time to write it down and worth the time it takes you to read it.

For many a year, the internal dialogue was: yes, I can write; but what do I want to write about?

The second hurdle was: WHO will LISTEN from the INSIDE???

Seven years ago, I heard the answer.

“Many will listen,  many will hear, resonate, and find their own goodness and spiritual power through the courage it takes to write and share.

Souls with their own unspoken messages, banging on the door of their consciousness, gasping to be heard, will listen and feel happy to hear another soul, long lost, now freed!

Who else will listen???

Souls immersed in their own struggles and challenges, sensing a life-giving voice, that acknowledges who they are.

As I continued to listen from the inside, I heard more:

“THIS IS THE WAY INTO YOUR OWN SPIRITUAL TREASURE.”  Share the jewels of knowledge you are fortunate to receive.  Churn the knowledge and directions given by the “Knowledge-Full  One”, so they may feed your intellect and make it divine.

Jump start others’ intellects so they may become divine, as well.   This life is all about awareness; where your awareness goes, your intellect either thrives or withers.

The Jefferson Airplane, rock stars of the sixties, were approaching this truth when they sang: “Feed Your Head”.  Their reference was to hallucinogenics, plant medicines, and the like.  This, my friends,  is a very different calling.  This requires a different “out of the body” experience.  This is about surrendering “normal”, everyday body consciousness to regain supersensuous soul consciousness, our birthright. 

This is powerful medicine:  chicken soup for the tongue-tied  soul, for the growing numbers of insomniacs in the world,  for all of us who have ever been bound by conflicting emotions, “shoulds  and shouldn’ts”, weakening thoughts, obsessions, addictions, or compulsions.  It is for the spiritually-hungry beings who need an infusion of nectar to open the doorway into the matters of their own soul, in order to realize and emerge their true nature,  activate their true awareness, and forge their own destiny!

Yet, sometimes the right thing is to say nothing. Most times, the best practice is to give others an experience, an experience that will stay with them for a long time.

It is only Truth that awakens the slumbering soul; however according to David Hawkins, MD, PH.D. who has done extensive research in the fields of human development and enlightenment, only 22% of the present population will recognize the truth when they are exposed to it!!!

Yet, look around and see it IS the time.  It is now or never.  Our world is awaiting the preciousness of your smile and the wisdom in your heart. Your part is that of the actor who knows her own truth and walks out onto the stage of life and becomes it.  Share; give freely of this nectar and these jewels.

The first and foremost jewel is to know who You are, beyond your present name, gender, occupation, relationships, family and even, beyond your body.

You are so much more than all that you see. You have been brainwashed into “seeing is believing” that this is all there is.  Though you have attached your heart to all that you see, there is still hope to experience the greater you, the Magical You, the Higher Self, the Great Soul that you are.

You may enjoy beginning with this simple experiment using the “power of thought”.

As Einstein remarked: “the world we have created is a product of our thinking, it cannot be changed without changing our thinking.”

What follows is an experiment in which you are asked to perceive yourself in a completely novel way, an experiement that will give you an inner adjustment by entertaining a new way of thinking about yourself and others.  You may enjoy reading the next section aloud:

“I, the higher being am an amazing prince or princess from a civilization of divine beings of light, angelic beings. I have come into this physical dimension to find my brothers and sisters, who are also angelic beings of light.  They got lost when their wings were cut by ego and attachments.  They’ve confused this physical dimension with the true Home in the dimension of light. I’m on a mission, focused and full of memories of our true identity as powerful, eternal, masterful beings of light, beloved children of a Supreme Being  who is calling us back Home.”

As these seeds of thought are planted deeply into the ground of your original being, may you experience yourself as the powerful being of light, that you are.  The light being who has simply put on a costume made of matter.

You may begin to remember where you came from and who you belong to.

This process of remembering is the practice of Raja Yoga; the oldest form of yoga (meditation) of India.

Have patience with yourself, knowing that a  journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.   As you take a step, the Divine Being of Light will take a thousand steps to meet  you!

May you have a blessed beginning and reach your ultimate destination.

I am a willing server of this wonderful practice of yoga, without asanas, the yoga of consciousness, the yoga of remembrance, of who you are, who you belong to, where you have come from, and where you are going!  Don’t hesitate to call me for an introductory session…in person or on the phone~ it’s FREE~ 808-639-9436

The Rose Seed and the Soul

ROSES of KauaiI turn my attention within to remember

who I am.

I, the Soul, am a Spiritual Rose in the Garden of the ONE, the Master Gardener.

I am the master of this body which  like a physical rose,  must fade away.

When the last petal of a rose perishes, the seeds will remain.  A single seed contains its blueprint, its original essence, and the eternal characteristics which make a rose, a rose.

When this body fades away, what still remains?  What is eternal, imperishable,everlasting?

The Light of the Soul is forever, like the rose seed,  the soul carries and perpetuates its original essence eternally.

The original essence, fragrance, and full bloom of a soul are found deep within.  In its fullness a soul IS: Peace, Purity, Love, Joy Truth, and Bliss.

With the right conditions and the right efforts, the full bloom of a soul can emerge once again.

She Rocks the Soul of All Who Listen~

Anahola Praying MaidenShe Rocks my Soul!

I am filled  with her green lusciousness.

Sand on back and between toes,

Caressed by a misty saltiness,

Kauai beckons me to say:

“Come into my world ,

Bring your childhood strain,

your businessman’s pain,

your motherhood’s drain.

All slip away by the sea, by the sea.

By the sea, I live,

by the sea.”


On the shores of Kauai,

I’ve come to know an oasis of

inner wonder and beauty

that ever calls out to me.

As I watch shades of golden red light caress the tenderest of skies,

my thoughts travel back to love

at the end of the day.

A canopy of peace prevails and soothes the soul into a

quiet, dreamless sleep under an awning of moon and stars.


Mama Kauai will rock you to the rhythm of her song,

a tune so ancient,  it will reach the  innermost depths of who you are~

She croons Her affirmations of love

All through the night.

All for all who listen.

white hammock and ocean

There is a Guide, a Teacher, a Parent who truly cares for you~the Source of Love

7/11/2014   A Friday Evening

My True Heart is filled to constantly overflowing, fed by my Lord of Nectar who is also constant.

I, the soul am drawn to the Magnet of Constant Love and Happiness away from this sorrow-drenched world.  I remember my true Home, the Land of Silence, Nirvana.

My happiness becomes constant. I spread these waves of happiness with the awareness of being an Unlimited Soul.  I, the soul continually flow towards the Source, as the Source continually flows towards me. This One beckons me to Remember.  Be Mine in Your Mind, Remember Me Alone.

As you remember the One,  receive purifying rays of Light and Love that fill you to overflowing.  Concentrated on the Source of Life, of Goodness, of Hope and Mercy,  go out and touch others with your presence.

Unlimited, constant, forever, eternal, always and beyond with my Father, the Beloved One.

Love is Life.  Love flows out to meet each moment.  There is a rippling of continuity that makes the NOW endless ….  Endlessly present and present and present…a flow of unbroken consciousness that takes you Home. Stay on this theme, this beam of Remembrance-it is your lifeline, your unbroken fortune to know the beginning, the middle, and the end continually flowing forever. Knowledgable, unwavering, long-lost but now found, come into the presence of ONE.

Behold Yourself, know True Love, See for yourself, the Truth.

There is a Guide, a Teacher, and a Parent who truly cares for you.  Remember that ONE and forget all the rest.  In this awareness is only purity, love, and bliss.  Share it, Be it, continuously.

Past Meets Present

July 19, 2006. This was written at the end of “summer break” from school.
There is so much outer activity as a teacher, hence the gaps between these creative sparks!
Om Shanti…I can now say this to my former self of 8 1/2 years ago. It means: I AM A PEACEFUL SOUL. However on July 19, 2006 I was not aware of or in touch with the core of peace within I, the soul. In fact, this is what I was writing: “drowning in sadness, images of loss have come loose in my being, spilling into everyday consciousness. Despondent, listless, where has my extreme positivity gone? Deep into the past where old mistakes, unresolved linger…waiting for a new day to be liberated, freed, forgiven.

Overwhelmed by the process of the LIGHT filtering through the darkness, searching for a new way to address each day and the gift of life. Apologies, love, loneliness, stillness, expectancy, communion all rolled up, merged together in a bunch seeking to tune in with the acceptance of God.

Invocation of the Mender of my soul’s sight, I am at once dying and being reborn. Infamous deeds of darkness pervade the well being of my inner spring, my flow into redemption. Knowing now how I can never see anyone below me, the shadows of my mind keep screaming out to taunt me with their lies, their hopes for the old ways to rule on this New Day.

Initiation Journey…Success…Wanderer of Kalalau, be with me now as I look into an abyss of crumbling rocks leading straight down into the crystalline waters of life below. The Light is ever present as I prepare myself spiritually for emerging my true self!

Folding into a yawn, stretching muscles of intent, bent on expansion of the Light into all realms. Rely on nothing, be on guard with positivity.Knowing this as the only way into the brightness of the future. go forward!!! Somehow, today, make your efforts resound echoes of hope into your sadness. Freedom forces of heavenly hosts come to your assistance in your uphill, hairpin turn about. God is watching you always…by your side.

Be known, be heard, beware, be still, be patient, be love. Beatitudes are calling to you despite the gnarly mass of sanskaras unraveling in your spiritual body. Keep moving them through with your wit, your love, your wisdom, your length and breadth…to the place you will next come into when you awaken full of life, full of light, full of love, fulfilled to the fullest, fully awake!

Knowing there is a great impasse to be crossed, I build up my reserves endearingly to nourish my soul and spirit. Emotional cleansings come and go and so do we. Now here, now gone, ever present is the longing for moments of union with the Divine.

Momentous memories of YOU wading through my mind, wading through my soul, grasping hold of my hand, so I won’t sink into the muddiness of forgetfulness.

Closing my eyes to Your brilliance is not the answer I seek. Joining with You there, becoming one with your salvation giving. Your broad hand now relieves the shadows of my mind.

Then at the beginning of May, 2007 a short piece entitled BEING PRESENT:

Do it Like it Matters!!!

Take frequent Holidays to Recharge…you can do this in 50 minutes…recharging is important

Face Everything…whatever is in front of you.

Being in stillness, open up, dialogue with your loveliness. Love yourself enough to love the parts of yourself that are hard to love…make amends…create salvation…find your fortune!!!


Gratitude…great full gratitude, grateful gratitude!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Points on the Landscape of the Soul

There is history here, an inner history that helps the soul to mark the changes made over time.  As I, the soul, review this journal, I note that, physically I have shifted from Big Island { the youngest and most volcanic island} to Kauai, the oldest, and for a lot of us, the most serene and beautiful!  I read with the awareness of a gold miner, attentive to the subtle shifts in consciousness and direction that can be found.  I do a lot of sifting to find the golden nuggets, to bring them into focus, and then to polish them into their greatest value.

This JOURNAL was started on January 24, 1999 in Waimea on the Big Island of Hawaii and has been holding these thoughts securely in its midnight blue covered notebook appropriatley called the “PASSAGES JOURNAL”, for over 15 years.  This journal  was designed with insightful quotes from well known writers, as beautiful reference points on the landscape of thought.

Rediscovering old journals is like finding hidden treasure.  As I opened this one,  the first thing that struck me was a quote from Emily Dickinson, America’s well-known and beloved poet and hermit:  “I dwell in possibilities” and  Iwonder what possibilities have emerged within me, the soul, over this span of time?  On the next page, another jewel,  from Oscar Wilde, the Irish poet and playwright:

“Life is not complex.

 We are complex.  Life is simple,

     and the simple thing is the right thing.”

Moving along, it becomes crystal clear, that I have been approaching this truth all along.

Today, 15 years later, these words from the master, Michael Angelo, might very well serve to inform  our entire society that has come to bank so heavily on the standard of “more”.

                                          “The greatest sophistication is simplicity.”

                                          And so, begins the first entry 1/24/1999:

Here I sit at home with the green hills and pastures of Waimea, alone, but for a jet, black puppy on the lanai and the great presence of the wind whipping down the steep slopes of Mauna Kea, relentlessly cleansing the air.  Restless ,the soul misses a true companion to share it all with…

Second entry:  2/19/99

Has God truly chosen to allow me to have a spiritual relationship?   One in which both grow towards Divinity together, becoming bestowers, rather than takers, givers rather than users, seeing the magnificent soul within the other at all times.

Third entry:  2/20/99

Such a fulfilling evening with A.  We listened to Peter Gabriel’s  “Passion: the Last Temptation of Christ” over and over again.  We enjoyed each other’s company.  I spoke of what marriage meant to me and he explained truthfully that he is still healing from the breakup of his.  I prepared dinner for us and invented a new “magenta” salad dressing from beet juice, avocado, and macadamia nut/ chili oil.  We drank a fine Bordeaux and sat side by side on the big chair for two.  He brushed my hair.  I purposely wore lavender and plum.  He enjoyed the colors and the conversation.  There is a great attraction here that goes deeper than what meets the eye.

AFFIRMATION:  I release all that is unlike love.  There is time and space for everything I want to do.  I lovingly forgive myself.  I am free.


Then there is a GAP of 7 years, this journal lay still, dormant, awaiting its time once again to hear more of the soul’s thoughts and to keep them safe between its covers.  The relationship that began the journal wasn’t meant to last; it served as a stepping stone on the journey to a Higher Love.  During the seven year gap, I, left Waimea on the Big Island and relocated to the northern most island in the Hawaii chain, Kauai, the Garden Island.  Here, I  lived in Wailua Homesteads, on the east side of the island, behind the Sleeping Giant.  Wailua, on Kauai, looks much like Waimea on Big Island.  It is on the mountain side {mauka}  and has green mountain slopes, mist, and cool temperatures. Yet energetically the two islands are worlds’ apart, each uniquely different and special; Hawaii (Big Island) is like a passionate teenager, full of extremes of climate and plenty of lone stretches of lava covered landscape that looks like the surface of the moon! Kauai, on the other hand has a gentle strength like a beloved grandmother, whose beauty has become refined through the years, sweet and naturally beautiful.

Fourth entry: 3/19/2006

8:35 a.m.

Mama Kauai has drawn lots of writing out of me, mostly in the form of poetry, however it does not lie within these pages.  More of that later!  This was the year that it rained for 40 days and 40 nights straight. A dam broke and subsequently broke off a huge land mass which washed out to sea taking with it 5 souls living close to the land.  It was during these days of massive rain in March of 2006 that this was written:

” I feel dormant like a seed, waiting to sprout, to be released from its softening shell, eager to emerge through the fertile soil, to bask in the sunlight, and to blossom.

In this season of nature’s turmoil, of shifting streams of water, earth, and thoughts, I know one thing, for sure, that Love is Perennial.  And when it graces your door, keep it in good company and balance it in true relationship with all aspects of your Self….in all relations, in all aspects of the environment, in your work life, with your friends, and in deep conjunction with your spiritual aim.

Rain, rain, and more rain. Rainy March promises  us a new and  brilliant and fullfilling Spring.   Knowing my fulfillment is coming too and is a part of the whole, eclipsed by nothing,  I await the harmonic unfolding of Truth and Love and all its delights.   A passing vehicle  blows its horn, as if to acknowledge the coming of a true season of love, as the gateway into my 60th year, upon the beautiful face of this earth, approachs.

       The rains have softened my skin and tempered my attitude with pliancy and patience.

Solitude and silence have birthed a longing in the soul for the shared joys of permanence, a blending of the present with the future, a forging of a vision shared, created, and nurtured by Love, a kind of love only dimly remembered in the recesses of reminisences of another place in an altruistic dimension of time that was befitting of gods and goddesses, heavenly deities, True Children of the ONE.

A metamorphosis of the soul is taking place in this quiescent, dormant state…influenced by the cleansing power of the rain which dominates the landscape and penetrates the cleared consciousness with a vision of true union and indestructable happiness.

 Beloved of my Soul, YOU are here, close by, experiencing me as I experience you through this most natural of occurrences…rain, rain, and evermore rain.  My soul is calling out for more rain still, more wetness to fuel the cleansing, to purify the ethers of this island where vice has taken its toll upon the aina in the form of greed and all its progeny!

NOW a Higher Love is being called into Being!  A return to the portrait (template) of Our World designed by the Creator for health, happiness, and prosperity.  All is coming alive during this time of the Great Rains that are washing the vibrations of Mama Kauai into her original, pristine form of long ago. Moving back in consciousness into a time when souls, too, were pristine as a mountain stream.  No obstacles cluttered the flow. Mama Kauai is reclaiming her Self and so am I.

Maya and all of her progeny have dominated the kingdom here thus far,  setting in motion, a trend, which influences souls to grab up as much of Paradise as they can and claim it as their own!  Thoughtforms of anger, greed, lust, attachment, and ego have filled up the etheric waves of this precious island, as well as the rest of the planet for too long.  Do not conform to these negative thought forms.

 Shift to another channel, another orbit!  Attune to  innocence and purity and the longing of the soul to recharge, regroup and  to unite with the ONE.  Put all focus on the Supreme as the Prime Motor of the Universe, the Chief CEO ,the One who never misses a beat!

The One who offers you true paradise on the palm of His Hand.

Master Almighty Authority, Ocean of Bliss, Ocean of Peace, Ocean of Love, Bestower, Compassionate One, the ONE who shows the way to Supreme Happiness, the Benefactor who invokes the children to listen, to follow, to study,  and to remember the Directions of One.

 Prodigal Child, return home to the garden within the soul.  Assess it carefully and prune the overgrown weeds that have dominated for so long and

Become a flower.

Grow without restraint like the perfect blueprint within the seed.

 Pay attention to the ONE and find your way back home, your True Home, your True Destination.

Directions To Myself

Simply catch hold of your ORIGINAL FORM, your unlimited Self!

Recreating our lives by catching hold of our original form involves removing ourselves from the limitations of body consciousness. By sitting on your seat as a soul,you are automatically able to transform your sanskaras (old patterns). Words of weakness are not the language of an aware soul. So why do you use this language?

First of all, check yourself, and then speak.

Set yourself on your “seat” ( your third eye) and then create thoughts and perform actions. By sitting on this “seat” (in the center of the forehead), you automatically receive the blessing of being elevated. So why do you let go of this seat that is blessed and labor instead? Then after laboring you become tired and disheartened.

Adopt the easy method.

Everything depends on your awareness.

Does your awareness remain constantly powerful and great or is it sometimes great and sometimes ordinary?

Whatever someone is, be it a musician, a conductor, a doctor, a healer, a teacher, a student, a mother, a child, she always conducts herself while aware of who she is. In the same way, since you are elevated souls, special actors, why does the awareness of the form of this birth, of your position and your occupation sometimes remain special and sometimes become ordinary? Why do you forget the greatness of your life and your birth?

Why is there body consciousness? Why do I identify with my temporary form in order to play my part. Maya opposes and we forget our true selves.

Remember who you are, trust in the “drama” that it is always beneficial and working on your behalf! Pay attention to your role. Have deep meditation in soul consciousness. Have the inner humility to give up everything and be open to something more powerful.

There is only one mantra and only ONE who gives it. It is given to purify your soul.  It is given by the ONE who puts all the pieces of your heart together.

“Remember Me constantly and renounce all bodily belief systems, forget your own body, and your story about all your bodily relationships.  Consider yourself to be a soul and become bodiless.”

Fall in Love with who you are…with YOU, the soul.

The One Great Mantra: “Remember Me, the Bodiless One”.

To understand is to become. Move with great tact.

Consider yourself to be a soul and your final thoughts will lead you to your destination.